Many flocked to see Laura, to watch this young girl with a green ribbon about her eyes (a common accessory at the Perkins School so the sighted would not be distressed by sightless eyes) as she read, wrote, and spoke. Laura liked the attention, but “she began to chafe under the constant pressure to perform, and she would lash out and attack her teachers and the other Perkins students,” Natalie wrote. “She hated numbers and avoided her math lessons. She was bright and insatiably curious, but she had her limits.”
It was this intense local then national notoriety that brought Charles Dickens to Perkins School and made Laura’s fame international.
“The children were at their daily tasks in different rooms, except a few who were already dismissed, and were at play,” Charles wrote of his visit. “Here, as in many institutions, no uniform is worn; and I was very glad of it… [T]he absence of these things presents each child to the visitor in his or her own proper character, with its individuality unimpaired.”
Sitting before Laura, Charles’s observations were both admiring and pitying. “There she was, before me; built up, as it were, in a marble cell, impervious to any ray of light, or particle of sound; with her poor white hand peeping through a chink in the wall, beckoning to some good man for help, that an Immortal soul might be awakened. ... Long before I looked upon her, the help had come. Her face was radiant with intelligence and pleasure. Her hair, braided by her own hands, was bound about a head, whose intellectual capacity and development were beautifully expressed in its graceful outline, and its broad open brow; her dress, arranged by herself, was a pattern of neatness and simplicity; the work she had knitted, lay beside her; her writing-book was on the desk she leaned upon.—From the mournful ruin of such bereavement, there had slowly risen up this gentle, tender, guileless, grateful-hearted being.”
He noted also that Laura, barely 13 as she met one of the English-speaking world’s most famed authors and orators, had a small doll beside her. She had tied a green ribbon about the doll’s eyes, too.
“The real Laura Bridgman was both more interesting and less angelic than Howe and Dickens led the public to believe,” Rosemary wrote. “She was intelligent and had a very strong will... When she was instructed not to make loud and ‘disagreeable’ noises with her unmodulated voice, she responded, ‘God gave me much voice!’ She occasionally deceived her adult teachers; several times stole food from other students; sometimes pushed, pinched, and bit people; and could be irritable, moody, and selfish. She was contemptuous of students who seemed to lack intelligence, and she treated them imperiously. She was emotionally needy, had fits of nerves, and in her late teens became anorexic. She was, then, not unlike a lot of teenagers.”
Following Charles’s visit, the number of Laura’s visitors only increased. Publications, especially evangelical journals and women’s magazines, followed her story with great interest. Her teachers worried that Laura drew far too much attention compared to her classmates.
Her fame was short-lived, however, and by 1841, her life’s moderate stability took several blows as well. Beloved matron Lydia left Perkins School to get married. She was replaced by Mary Swift, who was a capable teacher but not the warm and loving presence that Lydia had once been. Then, in 1843, Samuel married Julia Ward (author of the “Battle Hymn of the Republic”) and the two left on a long honeymoon. When Samuel returned 16 months later, his interest in Laura and her education had faded. Laura and Julia never bonded. In 1845, Mary Swift left the school to get married as well, and 15-year-old Laura was left without any teacher at all.
Samuel, “disillusioned by both his own failure and Laura’s glaring and seemingly sudden faults,” as Rosemary put it, “effectively turned against her. After years of pouring praise on her for the public’s consumption, he now stated that his hopes for her had been disappointed ‘clearly because they were unreasonable.’ ... Howe had stated firmly at the start of his career that the blind were no different from the sighted and that blindness was a superficial handicap, but after 10 years of work at the Perkins Institution, he radically reversed his position. ... Howe went on to insist that the senses, especially sight, are crucial to the development of the mind, and that people who were born blind, or became blind due to illness, were victims of poor heredity that left them inferior both mentally and physically.”
He would even go on to speculate that blindness was a punishment for flawed moral character. Samuel withdrew from Laura almost entirely, and likely gave the young girl no understanding as to why.
After months without any instruction, a teacher named Sarah Wight came to Perkins. She taught Laura math, geography, and history, but Laura’s favorite times were when they would have “finger” conversations and just talk. After so many losses, Laura could be demanding with this young teacher. She was barely 16 years old, rarely sociable with other students, and jealous when Sarah gave attention to anything or anyone but her.
Rosemary noted, “It seems obvious to me that whatever Laura’s emotional difficulties were, they had less to do with her physical disabilities than with the various traumas she had suffered in her young life. ... She was used as a public socio-scientific experiment, constantly surveyed, corrected, manipulated, tested, and entreated to perform. One can only imagine the emotional riot that went on in her head. And the sole way for her to express her feelings civilly was to spell them out painstakingly with her fingers to those few people able to understand that language.”
Laura barely ate, a development of her anorexia, and her weight plummeted to 79 pounds. Hoping to raise her spirits and stabilize her health, Samuel sent her home with teacher Sarah for a visit. Reuniting with her mother and younger siblings did indeed bolster Laura’s mental health. She began eating again and even got to spend time with her old friend Asa Tenney.
But the losses continued when Laura returned to school. In 1850, Sarah left to get married, leaving Laura once again without a teacher and now truly kept at arm’s length from Samuel. It was decided that Laura, now 20, had completed her education and should return to her family in New Hampshire permanently.
Around this time, Laura began to take solace in a subject Samuel had once forbidden: Religion. When Laura was 11 years old, Samuel had struck upon a new aspect of his experiment. He wanted to know if the belief in God was ingrained or taught, and so he instructed all Perkins teachers to never speak of God around Laura and to leave unanswered any questions she may pose on the topic. But her family was Baptist and some of the teachers hadn’t obeyed this particular order. In her teens, she’d already been a believer, and in July 1852, Laura was baptized. She prayed, meditated, and even wrote a few devotional poems.
At home, she missed school and often felt neglected by her busy farm-working family and parents who now had several other children. Her worst symptoms of anorexia returned, and her health suffered greatly. Concerned, Laura’s friend Dorthea Dix raised the money to create an endowment that could, in perpetuity, pay for Laura’s residence at Perkins Institution, even if she was no longer an active student. When Samuel died in 1876, he left instructions to provide for Laura’s financial security as well.