“Tst, tst, tst! I haven’t seen a buffalo in more than forty years. ... I do not hate anybody, not even the white man. ... I have never let myself hate the white man, because I knew this would only make things worse for me. But he changed everything for us, did many bad deeds before we got used to him.” She then leaned toward Frank to say, “White cowboys met a deaf and dumb Crow boy on the plains, and because he could not answer their questions, could not even hear what they said, they roped him and dragged him to death.”
“‘Sickness came, strange sickness that nobody knew about when there was no meat,’ she said, covering her face with both hands as though to shut out the sight of suffering. ‘My daughter stepped into a horse’s track that was deep in the dried clay, and hurt her ankle. I could not heal her; nobody could. The white doctor told me that the same sickness that makes people cough themselves to death was in my daughter’s ankle. I did not believe it, yet she died, leaving six little children. Then my other daughter died, and left hers. These things would not have happened if we Crows had been living as we were intended to live. But how could we live in the old way when everything was gone?”
“Ahh, my heart felt down when I began to see dead buffalo scattered all over our beautiful country, killed and skinned, and left to rot by white men, many, many, hundreds of buffalo. ... The whole country smelled of rotting meat. Even the flowers could not put down the bad smell. Our hearts were like stones. And yet nobody believed, even then, that the white man could kill all the buffalo. Since the beginning of things there had always been so many! Even the Lacota, as bad as their hearts were for us, would not do such a thing as this; nor the Cheyenne, nor the Arapahoe, nor the Pecunnie; and yet the white man did this, even when he did not want the meat.”
“We believed for a long time that the buffalo would again come to us; but they did not. We grew hungry and sick and afraid, all in one. Not believing their own eyes our hunters rode very far looking for buffalo, so far away that even if they had found a herd we could not have reached it in half a moon. ‘Nothing; we found nothing,’ they told us, and then, hungry, stared at the empty plains, as though dreaming. After this their hearts were no good anymore. If the Great White Chief in Washington had not given us food we should have been wiped out without even a chance to fight for ourselves.”
“And then white men began to fence the plains so that we could not travel; and anyhow there was now little good in traveling, nothing to travel for. We began to stay in one place, and to grow lazy and sicker all the time. Our men had fought hard against our enemies, holding them back from our beautiful country by their bravery; but now, with everything else going wrong, we began to be whipped by weak foolishness. Our men, our leaders, began to drink the white man’s whisky, letting it do their thinking. Because we were used to listening to our chiefs in the buffalo days, the days of war and excitement, we listened to them now; and we got whipped. Our wise-ones became fools, and drank the white man’s whisky. But what else was there for us to do? We knew no other way than to listen to our chiefs and head men. Our old men used to be different; even our children were different when the buffalo were here.”
“Tst, tst, tst! We were given a reservation, a fine one, long ago. We had many, many horses, and even cattle that the Government had given us. We might have managed to get along if the White Chief in Washington had not leased our lands to white stockmen. These men, some of them, shot down our horses on our own lands, because they wanted the grass for themselves.”
“‘Yes,’ she went on, her eyes snapping, ‘these white men shot down our horses so that their cows and sheep might have the grass. They even paid three dollars for each pair of horse’s ears, to get our horses killed. It was as though our horses, on our own lands, were wolves that killed the white man’s sheep.”
“I have not long to stay here. ... I shall soon be going away from this world; but my grandchildren will have to stay here for a long time yet. I wonder how they will make out. I wonder if the lease-money that is paid to the Government in Washington by the white stockmen will be given to my grandchildren when it is paid in, or if they will have to wear out their moccasins going to the Agency office to ask for it, as I do. … But then ... I suppose they will be wearing the white man’s shoes, because shoes last longer than moccasins.”